My Thoughts

Ima just start typing and see where I end up…

I just read my last post and so much has happened but not much has changed… which is not a bad thing. I really like my life here. I should have started off at this school but everything happens for a reason. My Sophomore year has been probably my best. My grades are up. My relationship that I am in is the best I've ever been in. It might have its ups and downs but its overall something that I really cherish. I don't let too many people know when its at its downs because the second you complain, there are 10 more people right there to tell you what needs to happen in your relationship… and half of them cant even function on a day to day basis. Its kind of scary sometimes.

You never know who you will end up falling in and out of love with. People stay married for 20 years and then realize it just cant work anymore. What if that starts with insecurities that happened when they first started dating but they ignored it. Unfortunately when people mess up there is no reset button. The relationship accumulates the good memories AND the bad ones. I guess the only thing that determines if its worth it or not is how the couple work through their problems. But what if they just THINK they worked through it. Only time will tell. but today im in love and today i wouldn't want to be with anybody else. You have to play the game with the cards your dealt?

Mi No Speakie Any Ingles?.... WHAT?!

i just read my professors ratings and my Public Relations (my major) teacher barely speaks ENGLISH! ok... now this is my second time taking this class... i had some stuff going on last semester. lol BUT I WAS COMING BACK HARDCORE THIS SEMESTER!

<>>>this is a setback on my confidence<<<>

Nobody had ANYTHING nice to say about this guy. i have no idea what im supposed to do about this. i was going to try to squeeze in one more class to make 15 hours but ima leave it at 12 for now. this is just ridiculous...

how to have a long day in about an hour 101: Lesson 1

1. ok these are my tweets about what happened to me today. you have to read from the bottom to the top (for those who are sure how tweets are read in order)
   
   1. it almost caused a huge pile up but lucky for him everybody stopped JUST in time. today is just not my day7 minutes ago via web
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   2. im driving just ready to get back the the apartment & a Coca-Cola semi pulls out and is literally taking up both lanes and stopped8 minutes ago via web
   3. ok back to my story. so then i get in the car. the man at the light is picking his nose and looks at me like i did something wrong #Really?10 minutes ago via web
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      AND THEN! the guy who came to help thought he was Diddy or Kanye or somebody and pointed to what i needed and kept walking (literally)when i was ready to check out the girl at the register kept trying to talk to me (don't). i wasn't in the mood at this point.11 minutes ago via web
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   6. Special. so then he tried to get some help for me and everybody ignored him. it took me forever to get good service.13 minutes ago via web
   7. the man at walmart told me to go to lowes. i asked the man at lowes for help and as soon as he started talking/walking i realized he was...

Almost Time

So the Summer is almost over. i just don't know how i feel about this. on one hand i'm about to be roommates with my best friend but on the other "they" say don't live with friends. theeeennn on one id say yes back to school so i can be productive. but on the other id say #LetsBeReal... after a week im ready to take a break. we'll see. i am going to give nothing less than 95% lol. Uggghhhhh. tomorrow is the day i leave my home and move. lol (more hands) on one hand i want to PARTAAAAY {but} i have Responsibilities... fun. but Seriously... a part of me is ready to #GetDownToBusiness. heeerrrrrrre weeeee goooo!

The MASK!

Why do i wear makeup if people say i look better without it? why did heidi montag get so much surgery if she was prettier before? the way we see ourselves is not the same as the way the world sees us. lol i think that after a while, girls who wear makeup start to view themselves differently when it's off. i feel like the true me is who i am with all of it on. lol dont judge me until you see my full face put together... its not like its different features, its just a painted canvas. its not a complete lie, just a fabrication. but the question is still not answered. why do it if others think its not necessary. i do it now for me because it makes me feel prettier but if others see me prettier without it then i should stop... right?

Personal Jam Session!

if you are like me then you jam so much harder when nobody is around. being alone can feel like solitary confinement but sometimes it is Pure Freedom. just turn it up and let it go. there is no pressure and nobody to judge you. i love to turn my webcam on and sing to myself... lol as you can see from the picture that i took last night. You are Your BEST company. all i need is my itunes, pandora, or music videos on MTV at 3am. here is a challenge for Y-O-U: spend about an hour today just JAMMING OUT. it doesnt have to be at one time. start off in the shower, do it while you clean your room/house, and in spare time.

HAVE FUN!!! =)